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10:45 AM
Yesterday went out wif the gals(Xian,Juan&Jac).Qin can't join us as she had a camp going on...so sad..I brought them to the Thai restaurant at Bugis, they had a wonderful meal. We take a few neoprints.
We went to Starbucks after that, chit chatting.....
Its time to go home...Xian's boyfriend come n fetch her...me? haha...I wanted to meet Yang and go back together but he dun wan because if he is going to accompany me home, we have to take cab(its quite late to catch the last bus) and he dun have money liao....I was totally sad...Because....First, i think he knew that i was in Bugis, he also went there wif Xavier they all but he dun even bother to tel me he was there and ask me where am I...I dunno, if i was him, i will ask lo...i dunno what is he thinking la...maybe he thinks differently....So how did I know he was in Bugis? I got the information from Xian and Xian got it from Xavier....See? I dun even know where my boyfriend is? I still need other people to tell me where my boyfriend is....Is it my problem or his?He did come and find me at the restaurant...why? Cause I SMS him and ask him where he is mah....haiz...my god..can't he take the initiative to ask me where am I?Second, as I have said just now, he dun wish to meet me and accompany me home. If he dun have money,why didn't he ask me do I have anot? Alright, I dun expect him to leave his friends earlier and take bus with me but I do have the money you know...Maybe he wanted to help me save money....He still ask me to be understandable....is like if I dun understand, I will be very unreasonable....Okie thats alright...I went home wif Juan & Jac...I take bus alone....Walk alone with so many guys eyeing on me...I felt scared...Last time i used to go home by myself..Thats because I have no choice..I dun have boyfriend....I was thinking is he worried about me or not? I reached home about 1am...he dun even call me or SMS me to ask whether i reached home or not...Why? Because he take for granted that i will automatic tell him when i reached home....its very late already you know...Maybe to him its not so late....but i m a girl...........his girl................When i reached home, I SMS him....he take a very long time to reply me...cos he can't feel the vibration...What the....? If you are not sending your girlfriend home and you dun take the intiative to ask her whether she reached home already, shouldn't you grabbed your handphone tight and wait for her call? I asked him whether was he worried anot? He said:" Got worry la...." Then? What was he doing? He only know how to have fun with his friends...Should I blame him? Should I be angry? Should I tell him? Should I be sad? Should I?Am I unreasonable?
- opps! it fell.
1:10 PM
Haiz...long time never write liao...nothing very happening happen till now...haha what am i talking?? Yesterday when to SIP briefing, very interested in going events company n work cos this is the reason i took this diploma. But it is a tedious job wif lots of stress and inflexible working time..The speaker even say we can even lose our gf n bf..after listen to this, i have a second thought.
How can i lose Yang? I know if i managed the time right, there should not be a problem but i hav no confidence. I have experienced Yang leaving me because i neglected him during i worked in Chan bros. I thought of leaving him before i went for SIP but that will not be fair to him. He asked me to try managing love n work together but i dare not try....i really have no confidence. I don't know what to choose...Career Vs Yang......
My father bought a k700i for my brother...just becos my bro is willing to find a job finally..What about me? i have studied n work for my whole life..n i didn't get something like tis...
The World is unfair.....Y must let two pathetic gals like me n ShuXian to suffer love pains? From secondary school till now, all we get are hurts, hurts n more hurts...All the happiness seems to have being covered by hurts n sorrows........
Love(50) + care n concern(20) + dreams(10) + happy moments(20)=100
Hurts(60) + betrayed(80) + fights n quarrels(30) + sad moments(30) =200
Therefore relationship is -100.....
All this we are willing to bear...just because we love our boyfriends too much.................
- opps! it fell.
