__ Opps! it fell.

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

11:03 PM

Recently I have been tied down by projects n projects. So tired until I can't breathe... Christmas had come and passed and New Year is round the corner. How I spent my christmas this year? Disappointedly, not with secret admirer, not with boyfriend and not even with friends but with my relatives.
I had sent a christmas cum invitation cards to my close sisters, asking them to spend their christmas eve at my house. We can have movies, logcakes, games, gift exchange and countdown. But only one of them reply me immediately(I think once she received the card) that she couldn't make it because she needs to work. The others just simply wait for me to SMS them...I appreciate the one who is the first to tell me though she couldn't make it. Moreover, no christmas cards from either of my friends. From primary school to secondary school to poly, not a single one. Nobody in my poly remembers my birthday, now this is another one....Great disappointment....
But really thanks to the people who have sent their greetings to me on christmas this year. Very sweet...
Am I really a lousy person? Nobody likes me is it? Close friends seems to take each other for granted...I feel so down. Nobody seems to care...Everybody had grown up and have their own life(e.g boyfriend) and have forget about the friendship that used to be so precious. Haiz disappointed...If nobody cares, then forget it la...
Why must I care so much?
Why should I need to choose beautiful cards and carefully paste the stamps?
Why should I feel guilty when I am too busy with work?
Why should I buy CD and sent it to my close sisters when the disc is stucked at somebody's house for months?
Why should I be so 'ON' when my close sisters called out for lunch or dinner?
Heart breaks.......

These are the pictures I took on christmas:

My Christmas present from my parents, brother and aunty

Christmas feast at Ah Choon aunty's house

The smallest logcake I have ever seen..Superly cute!

Anyway, I have sent out SMSes to ask my friends out to Mambo Jumbo on the 31st night. Lets see what is the outcome....

- opps! it fell.